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I was lost in space

Alone in the universe

Drifting through darkness for months

Until I’ve reached Jupiter

I was too far from home to return

Pushing away the red puffed air

I stranded swayed, and made my way

to the clouds that welcomed my ‘hello’

Still, fluffs seems better than

mindless wandering in the space.

I am tied on nothing but a rope

that keeps me from floating away

Glittering stars far from my reach

Yet I long to be next to somebody

To share my destiny

I’ve never felt so lonely in my whole life

And I have nowhere to go

So I decide to stay here

In the clouds of Jupiter

And on the scattered pages, I brought along

In my bags and spaceships, I pen down

And write letters to a world I left;

In hope of finding one better.

But who knew, the universe had

Such solitude planned for me.

I learned to build myself a home

In my abandoned spaceship,

Working on getting contact to Earth.

But it seemed hopeless.

I went on daily adventures in space,

The only joy keeping me alive.

And every day as these moons spiralled around,

My hands reached out in hope to touch, to see

My home which I left far way.

I closed my fingers on stars and ventures,

Refusing to give up, if there is a way to come here.

There surely must be a way to go back!

All my engineering skills couldn’t prepare me for this.

I needed a new energy for my spaceship,

So I could travel faster than light.

But my motor broke down and left me floating through space…

It took me a year to figure out how to use the energy of the great tornado in Jupiter’s eye.

And the melody ringed throughout the planet:

Beep-Beep! Statistics loaded. Ready to go!

Harbouring, Gathering, the energy hidden

inside the veins of these clouds.

I filled up my vessel. Fuel 0 to 100.

And buckled myself in seatbelts with glittering eyes.

The engine started with a raw noise…

I got excited to get away

And find myself a new home,

Somewhere in this universe;

There’s no return to Earth!

I’ve given up on this wish a long time ago;

But hopefully I’ll find a better place,

With new risks to face.

I looked forward, amazed.

My journey started in the clouds of Jupiter

One last glance back before I left for good,

Wondering where my spaceship will take me.

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Long way back home

The eyes of a melancholic traveller

hold the heavy clouds near to burst

As he looks up in the vast sky

Feeling lonely on his journey

Searching for a home he has left

The way he is going on is getting harder

as memories of her flash before his eyes

He blinks away her smiling face

Regretting leaving her behind

His sight seems hazy when he opens them

He knows he needs to let his tears fall

and let her go but somehow he is not able to

Tears are rolling down his cheeks

As he looks up at the hawk turning his circles in the blue sky

He wishes to fly as free as a bird

But he is far away from a cathartic release

With a shaky step forward,

his steps blotching the path with blood

He starts to move forward,

still not knowing where to go

It’s a long way back home

But if it meant crossing the seas

and the oceans to reach to her

He would do it

For in leaving her he found his heartbeat was

Right next to hers.

Poems written in collaboration with Evangeline